So I will be heading to the airport in about an hour. I am finally going home, back to my life. Ugh, what a drag. LOL.

I didn't sleep well last night and then I woke up really early this morning, so I am still very tired. I assume that by the end of the day I will be even more tired. Being at the airport sucks. I mean the long as walks to get to all the gates and terminals, then having to go through metal detectors and have your personal space invaded by total strangers.

Hmmm... and I'm thinking that I really should have rethought what I'm wearing and made sure that there was no metal on any of my clothes so that when I pass through the metal detector it doesn't go off. Too late now though. OH well, lets hope that its not detectable. I don't feel like getting wanned and touched.

I am going home though, so I suppose that's really all that matters. Wish me a safe trip (and that I'm not molested by airport staff)! lol

Love,
HQ

So I will be going home tomorrow. I got to pack though, and I really don't feel like doing that at the moment. I suppose that I will wait until its a little later. Maybe in an hour or so. But I should probably eat something soon so I can take my pills.

When I get home I will probably not update my journal as often as I have the past few days. Actually I don't even know why I updated so often while I've been here. I suppose because usually around now I have the house all to myself. There really is very little else to do. Not to mention the fact that for some reason or other my mind is getting distracted with thoughts. They seem a bit random to me, but somehow they all seem to string together.

Been thinking about Mary Magdalene a lot today. I've always been drawn to her, don't really know why. I think it was at first just because I loved her name, Magdalene. Anyway today I barely found out that she was made a saint and that her like feastday is on July 22nd. So since she is a saint and as I am Catholic (though I am a pretty shitty Catholic) I've decided that if I must wear some sort of medallion with a saint on it, I want the saint to be Mary Magdalane. Being of Mexican decent, I love the Virgin Mary as much as the next person, but I think that Mary Magdalane seems more suitable for me. And to clarify something, she wasn't a prostitute, I mean really she was just referred to as a sinful woman in the bible. The Prostitute thing I think is someone misconstrued the meaning and it was just passed on like that. But if she was a prostitute, I don't care. That was supposed to be one of the lessons that Jesus meant to teach: tolerance and of course not judging and loving your neighbor crap.

Other than that I don't think that I have anything else to say.

Still can't wait for Harry Potter and Half-Blood Prince. Only five more days though and I am pretty sure that I can distract myself with some business that I have to take care of once I get back to Illinois, like signing up for my classes and completing some assignments that were left pending from last semester.

Anyway I should probably get going now. Time to eat and take my meds.

Love,
HQ

I burned my effing index finger and it still hurts!

On another note, I went to Barnes and Noble today, bought Lamb By Christopher Moore (finally because I been meaning to read this FOREVER and by forever I mean for like two years in November). So far I've only read it up to chapter 3 and its good. I like it and its funny. But now I feel like I should have also bought Anne Rice's Christ the Lord. I had started reading it in the library once, but I didn't get very far. I was too lazy to take it out. Which reminds me I still have to read that book... Mistress of the Art of Death or something. (Shoulda gotten that fiction book on Magadelene too)

I have a shit load of crap that I want to read actually. The author of Mistress of the Art of Death has already come out with another book as well featuring the same female sleuth, but I'm not really sure I want to read that one. And I think that she will soon be coming out with a third featuring Adelia.

Anyway, I also bought Frankenstein by Mary Shelley. I saw the Mysterious Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde at the bookstore as well, and I wanted it. But I didn't want to buy it because I already owned it. I let one of my friends borrow it and she of course never returned it. This is why you shouldn't lend stuff to people, in particular books. I think she also has my copy of Tuesdays with Morey. I was particularly fond of my editions. Sigh.

Anyway, I will be going home on Saturday. Yay (not overly excited about my return actually and that was just sarcasm). Not that I don't miss my home, but returning means that I should probably start doing something with my life.

Love,
HadesQueen

This is just too bitching not to post. I can't freaking wait for this to come out. It just looks so amazing. Unfortunately it doesn't actually come out until like March 5, 2010.

The Mad Hatter (Johny Depp)

The White Queen (Anne Hathaway)

The Queen of Hearts (Helena Bonham Carter)



Anyway, I can't wait!

Love,
HQ

Is it odd that the kind of relationship that I would like to have would be one that resembles that of Dr. Girlfriend and the Monarch from the Venture Brothers? I don't know, I love to see them together.

I know that they are oddly dysfunctional, but they honestly care for each other and somehow make it work. Besides despite how insecure and jealous the Monarch gets, and despite what an idiot he can be, he really is devoted to his wife.

The Monarch also reminds me of someone I know (HAHAHa).

-HadesQueen

Haven't done any writing the past couple days but I suppose that is because I am on like a real vaca right now. Been watching a lot of vids on Adult Swim though. I am trying to get my cousin to watch the cartoons that I watch. Well to watch the cartoons that I watch on Adult Swim which are The Boondocks, Lucy Daughter of the Devil, Metalocalypse, Moral Orel, The Oblongs, and Robot Chicken. I have also been trying to get into watching the Venture Brothers so I might try to get her to watch that too.

I am wondering when The Boondocks new season is going to start though and if they are doing a second season for Lucy Daughter of the Devil. That shit was funny. I think there are people that say that there is going to be another season but that its going to get a new look. But I don't know. I hope that they do continue it though.

Anyway... July has started. I'm trying not to pay too much attention to the days because I feel like its going to be forever before the Harry Potter movie comes out even though it comes out on the fifteenth.

Which I was just thinking, I think the reason that I can't think of anything to write is because the seventh book kind of killed my inspiration. I mean in order to write anything that I'd really want to write, I'd completely have to disregard the seventh book and I can't do that. I am such a stickler to cannon.

On another note, I played Wii Fit and I really liked it. I want one now. I am totally going to have to get one when I get back to Chicago. But I will only be able to use it on weekends when my nephew comes over and brings his Wii because I don't actually own a Wii. My fingers hurt.

Love,
HQ

Been thinking a lot today about a series of things and my head is all in a tizzie. Just thought that I should write some of it down before my head explodes, but really gathering my thoughts is really not the simplest thing to do. I mean really you think like a million things at a time and its hard to record it all and make it coherent.
 

1. A Series of Unfortunate Events- Was thinking about Olaf who apparently went to school with Lemony Snicket and how its really sad that he like, lost everything. To have such a shitty life and be so disillusioned that all you want to do is cause harm is really sad. 
2. Then was thinking about what the author of the series said: "It's sad isn't it? I think the Baudelaires are getting older, and one of the sad facts about getting older is that you've always thought of yourself and people you know as righteous and true and the people you dislike as evil. The older you get the more muddy that water becomes."
3. A Beatiful Lie- "I've been thinking of everything I used to want to be." "This is the story of my life, and these are the lies I have created." "I'm in the middle of nothing and its where I want to be." "And I swear to god I'll find myself in the end." Started thinking about all the lies that surround us, the ones that we grow up with, the ones that we tell ourselves, the ones we tell people. And then thought about the Dark Knight, and how they say that sometimes people deserve something like better than the truth or something.
4. The Story-  "Try to let go of the truth, the battles of your youth, cause this is just a game." "It's a beautiful lie, such a perfect denial." "It's time to forget about the past, to wash away what happened last, hide behind an empty face." Then this songs just correlates with the last and then tied in with the next.
5. Be Yourself by Audioslave- Just a great song. Being yourself shoudl be relatively easy, but I suppose that is would be difficult for some people. You kind of just get lost.

Anyway, so all these thoughs, as incoherent as they seem are fueling my desire to write a story and I think that I have a clearer picture of the person that I want to write about. But I think that my brain feels overwhelmed at the moment, probably cause I didn't get a good nights sleep last night.

Shit what isn't there to miss? I mean seriously you have no worries, you have all the energy in the world, you get to play, and most of all your health rocks. The world just is a better place when you are a kid.

Back in may I went to the park on mother's day. That was the first time in years that I had been to a park and I sat on a swing with my cousin. That was fun. Swings are like one of the best past times when you are a kid. There is really nothing like just sitting there and trying to soar as high as you can into the air. And on the swings, it never mattered if you have no one to play with. You didn't need anyone else for it. I mean all you needed was the swing and your own determination to reach the sky. 

I cling to my inner child when I can, because it gets tiring to be so jaded. The easiest way I find to cling to my inner child is watching Disney movies. LOL. My fave when I was a little girl was Beauty and the Beast. To this day, I still perfer Beauty and the Beast to all the other fairytales, because there was something more real there. I mean all the other princesses barely knew the guy that they loved. Belle fell in love with the Beast not for his looks, or for his status but who he was. She fell in love with what was inside him, despite the bad temper and everything. Best love story ever, in my opinnion.

Oh, but those were the days. Now I'm nearly twenty, my body is already falling apart, and I am bored with the world in general around me. Not to mention the fact that I hate it. The world has become a piece of shit. 

-HadesQueen

A Meme cause I'm bored.

Pick a band/artist, and answer the questions using titles from their songs:
1. Choose a band/artist:
Staind

2. Are you male or female:
Zoe Jane

3. Describe yourself:
The Way I Am

4. How do some people feel about you:
Devil

5. How do you feel about yourself:
Fade

6. Describe your ex boyfriend / girlfriend:
King Of All Excuses

7. Describe current boyfriend / girlfriend:
Excess Baggage

8. Describe where you want to be:
Safe Place

9. Describe how you live:
Rainy Day Parade

10. Describe how you love:
Tangled Up In You

11. What would you ask for if you had just one wish:
Yesterday

12. Share a few words of Wisdom:
Everything Changes

13. Now say goodbye:
Blow Away

Just wanted to say that I updated. Other than that I really have nothing else to say. My life id boring, I'm doing nothing for the time being, I have no inspiration to write, which makes me life a bit more depressing and I am still not any better physically. But whatever. I updated Unrequited Wrong so just follow the hyperlink to the next chapter.

Chapter 30: My Pensieve Prince of Childhood.

Love,
HadesQueen